Dah lama nak post hal ni...Tapi kkdg tu fikir few times cos i may be exposing my bad self to everyone reading this blog..But hei!!im not born an angel..so of cos i have got my own flaws and weaknesses.
Im such a jealous wife..There you go..Out in the open world of cyber..Noy is such a jealous wife..The term is only as ' wife' ,ok..Im not that way in friendship and work wise..Only as a wife..
Im not only a jealous wife, im not kinda paranoid at times..
My hubby knows this and i dont have to tell him over and over..He knows i hate it wen some other girls are trying to get acquainted wif him..This is especially to those girls who likes to be his frens and ignore me..I hate dat..
Im a jealous wife that i even put curfew on my hubby. My hubby will always follow the curfew..I do feel guilty for doing that to him but i just cant fake it..Im such a jealous wife.There u go again..Im confessing it again and again..
Kkdg i try to reason myself to just trust him and let him go out n meet his frens till late..But sorry, dats just aint me..If he is to go out, he needs to be home before midnite..I want to sleep wif him by my side and i want him to know dat it hurts me if he didnt follow my curfew.
Why is it dat im like dis?
Is it becos my hubby is sooooo handsome that im scared some other husband-snatchers will be attracted to him?THE ANSWER IS NO..
Is it bcos im trying to prove myself as a queen-control freak? AGAIN THE ANSWER IS NO..
I know that trust and commitment is something i need to share in a marriage..I know dat a man will get pissed and fed up of being controlled.And i know dat if i keep doing this, i might lose my hubby..
But im sorry to say, its me..dats the real Noy..I cant just follow wats in most marriage counselling books and be TRUSTING.Im sorry but i just cant give him the 100% trust...i just cant..So since i dont have a 3rd eye at the back of my head and i cant install a hidden camera in my hubby's eyes, he just have to put up wif my rules and curfew..
My hubby is such a good man to me and i dont want to lose that.I went thru a lot of challenges just to be wif him..So i wont want no husband-snatchers to have my man just wif a click of her fingers..Even before we marry, i have confronted wif my hubby about my jealousy ..He agreed to put up wif it and will accept me as i am..
To hubby,im sorry for posting this post..but i think the hormonal rush in me is making my emotions quite hectic..Please bear wif me for a few more months and i'll try to be more considerate..But for now,just give in to wat i need and spare me the heart aches..I know dat u love me and will try not to hurt me but i just cant bear it if i lose u to someone else..
I just want u to love me..only me..
to think of me..only me...
and to stay true to me...only me...
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siti sama la cam noy...huhu
yer ker ct....ada rasa insecure mcm noy tak?cmner nk ubah yer?
noy, setiap perempuan mesti ada rasa cam noy. ni. tipulah kalau kata tak jeles langsung. tp betl gak ckp noy, sometimes kite kena trust our hubby.. its complicated jugak laa.. anyhow wish all the best for you both. noy n izad mmg sgt romantik. jalan pn pimpim tgn lagi. n after read all those thing izad sanggup buat utk noy (masa nak ngurat dulu tu ;) ) it's proven mmg noy aje dihati izad. jgn la risau2 ok
ok kalau keluar dgn pmpuan mlm2, izad sendiri mau ingat ok
tq adda...at most times, we dont see wat ppl see in us..i never see me and izad as romantic..mcm biasa jer...
maybe its just the hormones over ruling me now...now lepas luahkan my feelings in my blog, hati ok dah sikit..